Stronger Together

Doctors tell lupus patients to avoid stress, but stress didn’t avoid her. That’s where a white and fluffy pooch came in.

By Jackie Surls, Austin, Texas

As appeared in

What 28-year-old wants to admit her mom was right? Not me. And definitely not about this.

It had only been a week since my husband, Joey, and I brought our new puppy, Gunner, home to our apartment in Virginia, and already I felt like I was in over my head. I sat up stiffly in bed, my joints on fire from a flare-up of lupus.

Ding, ding, ding! To housebreak Gunner, we’d hung a bell on the front door that he could ring when he needed to go out. He caught on fast. Too fast. Once he figured out that it meant going for a walk, he rang the bell all the time.

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“No, Gunner,” I groaned. “I just took you out.”

At the sound of his name, he came trotting over to the bed. “Not now, boy,” I said. “I’ve got to rest.”

Gunner looked at me expectantly, his tail wagging. Trying to ignore the ache in my shoulders, I scooped him up into bed with me. My fingers brushed against his bright red collar. I sighed.

At first that collar had been a symbol of hopes being fulfilled. Now it was a glaring reminder: This is too much for you!

You can probably guess who warned me about that.

Maybe a year earlier I’d called my mom in Texas to tell her Joey and I planned to get a dog when I finished my Ph.D. in molecular and cellular biology.

“Forget it, Jackie,” she said. “You’re already worn out from working so hard on your thesis. You need to take time off after graduation to rest, not run around after a dog. With your lupus, you have to avoid stress.”

Mom would know. She has systemic lupus too. So does my sister. It’s a chronic autoimmune disease that attacks healthy tissue–skin, joints, organs. Symptoms flare and recede with frustrating unpredictability.

That last year of grad school I was in a constant flare, with extreme fatigue that sent me into a “lupus fog,” when it was almost impossible to concentrate. Fever. Aching muscles. Throbbing joints, especially my knees.

When I got home, I gave in to exhaustion and crashed for 12- to 14-hour stretches. “Hibernation mode,” Joey called it.

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He was so patient and accepting of my physical limitations. Me, not so much. I felt like I was sleeping my life away. My doctors advised me to leave school. Even Mom, who’d instilled in us the importance of education, pleaded with me to stop until I was better.

No way. I was determined to be the first in our family to earn a doctorate. God wouldn’t have given me this passion for science if he didn’t want me to pursue it, right? I prayed for the strength to finish.

There was something else that kept me going. My family had a fluffy white Chow when I was growing up. I’d wanted another dog ever since I left home. When Joey and I were first married, we didn’t have enough money–or time, with him working long hours as a software engineer and me in grad school.

But he saw how I was struggling. “I know things are really hard for you right now. I want to give you something to look forward to,” he said one night. “When you graduate, we’ll get a dog.”

That promise was the boost I needed. I put all my energy–what was left of it–into my research, and in May 2012 I handed in my thesis. Mom came up from Texas for my graduation.

At my celebration dinner, Joey presented me with a beautifully wrapped package about the size of a shoebox. I like shoes as much as the next girl, but what about his promise? Joey looked so eager that I hid my disappointment. I tore open the box. A red collar and leash!

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I just read the story about Gunner and his people mom! I also have Lupus and I have a Miniature Schnauzer named Oreo that's 5 1/2 years old and I have had him since he was only a few weeks old. I recently adopted two more dogs that are little white malti-poos and they are about 4 years old, I was told. They ALL fill my life with UNCONDITIONAL LOVE and LOYALTY that NONE of my HUMAN "FRIENDS" have lived up to! Because of "religious differences" - all of my FORMER FRIENDS have CHOSEN to cut me out of their lives TOTALLY as if I am DEAD! It is a LEGALISTIC/CULTLIKE ORGANIZATION that hides behind the TITLE of a RELIGION but all they do is preach that they are a LOVING WORLDWIDE BROTHERHOOD while at the same time, throwing out lifelong members that may not agree with every RULE they have whether it is in the BIBLE or not! Needless to say, having formerly been a very "People Person" to now being totally DISABLED and across the country to where I knew nobody and then suffered a devastating accident! I could not BELIEVE it when THAT was when they tossed me out like yesterday's garbage, even my BEST friend since early childhood and we are both in our 50's now and I NEVER dreamed SHE would turn on me!! Thank God that DOGS don't do those kinds of cruel things! When you are down, they get down right there cuddled up next to you!! THAT'S TRUE FRIENDSHIP! If I had not had the love and friendship of my dogs when my PEOPLE turned on me and left me ALONE, I don't think I would have wanted to live much longer because I was so deeply hurt in my heart!! With Lupus, you REALLY do not need STRESS and when PEOPLE make your life more stressful than it's worth, you NEED a DOG to let you know that you still matter and just carressing their fur actually lowers your blood pressure and heart rate and actually makes you RELAX all over and that is GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH ALL OVER, IN GENERAL! My Prescription for Lupus, Depression, Flu, Migraines, High Blood Pressure? Go to your LOCAL SHELTER and adopt TWO DOGS and CALL ME IN THE MORNING!! Then? Be a responsible Pet Owner and have your animals spayed or neutered to avoid pet overpopulation that causes far too many humans to give up those pets that depend on them and their humans betray them by letting them get euthanized!! Only something HUMANS WOULD DO, HUH? That's just TERRIBLE! WE ARE SUPPOSED TO SET THE EXAMPLE FOR ALL OTHERS AND BE LOVING AND CARING FOR OUR HUMAN AND ANIMAL FRIENDS!! It STARTS with YOU!