An Exercise in Obedience
I have a routine medical procedure scheduled for tomorrow, which requires a liquid diet today. The experience is strangely liberating, because I don’t have to make a single choice today about what to eat.
There will be no should-I-or-shouldn’t-I-indulge decisions, no rationalizations or self-given permission to nibble or snack. My preferences simply don’t matter today. This is an exercise in simple obedience.
Perhaps it’s a measure of how often I give way to my desires that a one-day clear-liquid diet feels so freeing. It’s easy, because doing anything else would make a mess of tomorrow’s procedure. But it does make me wonder: if I can follow the instructions of the doctor as if he were God, why can’t I follow God’s instructions as if he were the doctor? Self-indulgence and self-centeredness today will surely make a mess of tomorrow’s relationship with the Lord. Maybe it’s worth trying a one-day diet in which I try to forego all self-centeredness for 24 hours. I wonder if I could. And I wonder what the outcome would be.
Despite a daughter's life-threatening illness, there is still gratitude. There is still light.
Realizing that parents can't fight their children's battles for them